Sunday, August 31, 2008

The Fire


This happened yesterday while you were sleeping.

A man runs into the Shermans house and yells something in Swahili.
Steve responds in Swahili.

"Let's go." he tells me.
"What is it?" I ask.
"Fire."
"Where?"
"By your house."

I drop everything and I run. Down the stairs, out the front door, around the Shermans house, past the soccer field, past Brook's house, past Bibi's house, and I see my house with a wall of smoke rising up behind it carrying ash and debris over my head. It is windy and the smoke is moving fast.

I open the padlock on my door, run through the kitchen into my bedroom and throw important things into my trunk. Camera first. Books. Sleeping bag. Malaria pills. Warm clothes for Kili. I turn to leave, but I stop and fish out my camera and throw it over my shoulder before I run outside. I leave the trunk because the fire is not here yet, and I don't know where it will go or what it will do. A brick wall stands
between my yard and the burning grass and the thick white smoke on the mountainside.

More people have come – men, women, children, anyone who lives on our small, dry hill – and the smoke is swirling around them, billowing over my yard and around it toward the houses extending behind it, the other missionaries homes. My house is at the edge, the first line of defense. Next to my house, there is a small cluster of houses for Bible school students and teachers. A wide strip of dry, dead, thirsty grass stretches down the hillside from our homes, and beyond that, the firebreak. The flames are inside the firebreak, and they are marching through the grass toward our houses, leaving behind a circle of ash.

I jump over the wall and Nestori is there, cutting branches from a eucalyptus tree. I take one. I do not know how to fight fires, and there is no water around. Instead we all have tree limbs, rich and green and full of leaves and life, and we swat the fire with them as it eats the dying grass. Even children fight the flames, pounding the ground with small branches. We swat, the flames recede, and they come back stronger and eat more grass.

The wind is against us, and the fire is overwhelming. The flames forge toward our homes, and in some places they are taller than I am. The ring has reached the path that lines my wall, the only thing standing between my tinderbox of a yard and my home. The smoke is overpowering, blown by the changing winds, and I cannot help but breathe it into my lungs and it chokes me. I cover my mouth with my shirt, but the smoke still gets through. And so I run, gulp for fresh air, and run back. The grasshoppers jump and flit naked, their skin and wings taken as they've fled the flames.

I am hot and frustrated and out of breath, and I want to quit, but I am without sufficient excuse to leave the others, the women, the children, the missionaries to fight the flames without me. I am praying for help with the wind and simultaneously wondering how God can allow such a beautiful and useful thing to be so dangerous, to do such damage. This fire is not beautiful like the ones I have watched across the valley as farmers burned their fields at night. I am not taking pictures. I am sweating and grunting and gasping for air. I have calluses on my hands and they're already open and every swing of the branch stings, but the fire will not go out and we are the only things to stop it. Steve is next to me, and I tell him sarcastically that I am not having fun anymore.

The fire is creeping toward a cluster of trees, and I run in and begin to try to swamp it with my branch. I am downwind. My back is to the trees, and the fire is moving toward me and the flames are as high as my waste. A gust of wind. The flames are at my feet, at my jeans. "Get out of there!" comes from Steve's mouth, strong and desperate. I squint in the smoke and begin to run out of the fire. I feel the heat of the flames against my skin, yellow flames swiping at my face, at all of me. I raise my arms as I run, and behind me the flames take the ground I was standing on. I run beyond the smoke, into grass that will be consumed in a few minutes, and as I gasp for air I can smell burned hair on my arms. I feel my beard, and the hair is short and curled. My face is hot, but I am not burned. Only my hair is singed, gone from the underside of my arms and curled lightly up at the back of my neck below my baseball cap, now drenched in sweat. I am unharmed, but I'm going to have to shave.

The fire takes several acres of land behind my house to the east and south. It stops only at the path beside the brick wall. One side is completely burned, but the grass next to the wall is untouched. It doesn't get into the cluster of houses next to mine, only a short footpath away. It consumes a long stretch of grass, creeping toward the missionary houses behind me, in one place only twenty feet from one with a thatched-grass roof. Trevor tells me that they stopped it at one spot with a single bucket of water. Had it gone past, the wind could have taken it as far as his house, the last one on the hillside. Now, there are several acres of black land and sparse trees unharmed by a hasty and thirsty fire that wanted nothing more than to eat lots of grass and cover as much ground as possible.

The fire started inside our firebreak. Two kids who live on our hill were carrying coals to start a fire near their garden in the valley and dropped them in the grass along the way. They owned up to it later and received a public beating.

Steve tells me this happens at least once a year and that they don't have any pictures of people fighting fires. Now I know why. I had my camera with me the whole time, and not once did I think to stop and take a picture.

The only battle scars I've taken from this are the blisters on my hand and some singed hairs along my chin, on my arm, and at the top of my neck. All of our houses are fine. Still, I would rather not have to fight another fire in Mumba or anywhere else.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

You Can Hear Ants

I just started a fire so I can have a hot shower tonight.

I've been here in Mumba for a little over a week now, and the adjustment has been kind of tough, as I knew it would be. I am learning just how attached to my standard of living I really am.

For starters, the food is different. Lynn Caraway affectionately refers to margarine for toast (Blue Band, anyone?) as axle grease. Lunch is usually rice and beans. We get American-like meals for dinner, but they're all just a little bit off. The other night, we had omelets, which made for our best meal so far.

The Shermans have missionary friends that live in the Rukwa valley a few hours away, and they have cousins visiting. They were up in Mumba for a day, and someone asked them what their first meal would be when they go home next week. He said they were going to Denny's. I thought, "Man, I could go for Denny's right now."

And at that moment, I realized that I was wanting Denny's and that something was seriously wrong. Seriously, Denny's? And I have only been here for two weeks. You don't realize just how much you're attached to things like greasy American food until they're gone.

But before you think life here is all mystery foods and rustic housing, hear this: A favorite evening activity here is playing Call of Duty. The Shermans have a wireless router that we use to play each other. Not a bad game, if I forget the fact that I've been regularly humbled by an 11 year-old along with everyone else I've played
against. Last night Aideni, a friend of Trevor's who lives across the field from me, got in on the fun. The Africans humbled me in soccer on the first day, and now they're humbling me in Call of Duty. It's great.

It's hard for me to get into my email. I have my computer set up to use a modem with a sim chip from a cell phone to get me onto the internet. It took me a few days to get into it, but now I've got it figured out. I pay by the byte, so it's going to be impossibly slow and expensive for me to put pictures up on here. I've taken around 300 so far, but they'll all have to wait for me to get home.

I have lots of pictures of ants. If you watch the Discovery Channel or Animal Planet, you may have seen one of those "World's Deadliest Animals" shows. I saw one once where Siafu, better known as army ants, were at the top of the list. They go into an area and clean out all of the living things. They devour rats and cockroaches and spiders and, sometimes, people trying to read.

Which brings me to how I learned that the house I'm living in (by myself) is built on top of a Siafu colony. The other night I was reading when Steve Sherman came over to get me for dinner. He went back outside then ran back inside and threw off his pants in my kitchen. He had ants in his pants. They crawl up your legs, and you don't feel them until they bite your thighs – the only remedy is to remove your pants and pick them off. But when we had eliminated the threat, we went outside, and the front walls of my house were swarming with millions and millions of ants, a group large enough to eat a sick or old person. They were taking it over. This is the first time I have ever been able to hear ants. Hopefully the last. But we took lots of pictures. You'll see.

The first week was pretty light, work-wise. Trevor, Steve and I have been building a movie screen out of bed sheets and 2x4s. When it's finished, and once our sound equipment is ready, we'll be going out to show the Jesus Film. Hopefully we can get started this week. This week I also started teaching Trevor some geometry and literature. Thankfully, I have a teacher's guide with all the answers for geometry. In literature, though, I fear I spilled all I had on the first day. Characters, setting, plot - conflict, crisis, resolution… What am I forgetting? (Amy, I'm looking in your direction.) I guess I can just make him read a lot and have "discussions." Also, I'll soon be working on a newsletter for their 70+ churches in the area.

Six weeks from now, I'm climbing Kili. Or, at least, I'll be trying to.

Four weeks after that, I'll be heading home. I miss all of you a ton, and I look forward to seeing you all then.

Time to keep that fire going.

In the meantime, keep praying.

jim

Friday, August 15, 2008

Ninafika (I Arrive)

It is hard to get on the internet, so I hope you’ll forgive me for taking so long.

First and foremost - I’m here and my stuff is here. Beyond that, there’s little more I can ask for. I’m still a little tired. Jet lag will do that to you. At 12 am Tuesday, the sun was coming up as we were going down into Amsterdam. Of course, it was almost six am there. There is something wrong with having another day begin when the last one has not yet ended. So I roamed the Amsterdam airport groggily until I met up with Gloria, a fellow traveler to Dar Es Salaam and onward to Mumba, whose children work as missionaries there and were provided us transportation.

If I am to file one grievance against the airport in Amsterdam, it is that they took away two unopened bottles of Dr Pepper as we were checked through security to board our plane. I purchased them legitimately at DTW, and I will not forget the offense. Dr Pepper poses no threat to air security.

Nevertheless we arrived (almost) on time in Dar Es Salaam where Mike and Lynn Caraway met us with Luka, a three year old they’ve taken under wing from their orphan ministry. His mother abandoned him in the woods as an infant, and after the family found him and returned him she abandoned him again. He was found and brought to an orphanage in Sumbawanga as little more than a skeleton. The Caraways usually take in a handful of orphans to nurse back to health, and they've temporarily adopted him (you cannot officially adopt a Tanzanian unless you are a Tanzanian) while they search for a home for him.

We stayed two nights there with a day in between to run errands and change money in the big city ($500 USD bought me 569,000 Tanzanian shillings.) We spent an afternoon at a pool/hotel on the Indian Ocean and had dinner at Subway, the only chain restaurant with any presence in Tanzania.

Yesterday, we drove across the country to Mbeya where we’re currently staying until we go onto Mumba tomorrow or Sunday. That’s where I’ll live until November. The main highway runs from Dar Es Salaam through Zambia, and it goes right through Mikumi National Park. Just beyond the entrance, we saw the aftermath of an awful accident that took place the night before. A semi truck sat in the middle of the road, still smoldering, and a passenger bus had careened off the side of the road into the trees. It looked as though it might have rolled over. There were probably lots of casualties.

Further down the road, the highway along a cliff up a mountain. Lynn told me that vehicles often break through the barriers on the side of the road and plunge over the cliff. It’s no wonder, as it’s a two-lane highway and people often pass precariously, usually at high speeds. Just as we neared the top, we saw a group of people gathered at the edge of the road and skid marks attesting to yet another tragedy.

Beyond the mountains is Iringa, one of the bigger cities beyond Dar Es Salaam. We stopped here for some lunch with some missionary friends of the Caraways. Less than two minutes on the road (a dirt drive that leads back to the main highway) we lost a tire. Mike and I changed it. I got dirty in the African sun, and it felt like I had arrived. We drove the rest of the way to Mbeya without a spare tire, and much of that leg was at night. Driving at night, as you might guess, is not a favorable option. Mike reinforced this point of few. In Tanzania, you needn’t worry about bandits harming you to take your stuff. “They’ll steal your stuff,” Mike said, “But they won’t hurt you.” The same cannot be said for Kenya where, as I understand it, the punishment for robbery is the same as the punishment for murder. There’s little incentive there to leave people alive after you’ve robbed them.

Still, we made it to Mbeya where we’re eating and resting well and staying safe. This morning we had pancakes and this afternoon I got a haircut (from an Indian barber – he did a good job, Mom) for 4,000 shillings, or $4. So for now, the culture shock has been minimal. Pancakes help that, along with fatigue. Tomorrow we’ll spend another day here and depart on Sunday for Mumba, which is another 6-8 hours beyond here, depending on road conditions.

Thanks for your prayers. Pictures tomorrow. Maybe.

jim

Monday, August 11, 2008

Here we go

When there is chaos, God is doing something.

The last three weeks have been filled with chaos. I sent out support letters, waited for responses, waited to play things by ear. I made a packing list two weeks ago. I whittled away at it slowly, exhausting my life's savings (okay, past year's savings) stocking up for the trip, buying everything from floss to meningitis vaccines, compiling a small library of essential reading for the trip after many trips to thrift stores and book stores (see the bottom). If nothing else, I will have stuff to read. I made more lists, revised the old ones, filed them away neatly. Do you know how many little things you have to do before you leave the country for three months? Do you know how much worse it is if you're a procrastinator?

I prepacked, I unpacked, I repacked, I depacked, I...mispacked. Okay, I packed. I repeated. Tonight, I pulled everything out and did it again. I understand why some people hate traveling. And as I have crammed three months of living - frugal living - into a trunk, a duffel bag and a backpack, I have at least a little bit of worry that something important isn't in there.

Packing chaos aside, I can think of no better way to spend my last full day in the United States than to sit in a ballpark with my dad and my brothers, eating a hot dog and watching Nate Robertson throw a gem and the Tigers gain another victory.

But everything was waiting for me when I came home. The trunk, the lists, the little things, the chaos... The good-byes. Just as we were driving down my block, "Time to say good-bye" came out of the iPod. Not kidding. It's a beautiful song, one that just about moves me to tears even when I'm not about to leave everyone I know and move to a foreign country for three months, but it reminded me that at noon tomorrow, I will leave.

My Uncle Jim and Aunt Bonnie stopped by to bid me farewell, to offer prayers of support. After they were gone, I stood with my family - brothers and sisters and parents all in one room - for one last time and told them I was thankful for them and that I had their support. I cried. I am thankful for my family. I said good bye to Jon and Mary, then Jon and Bethany. Tomorrow morning, I will say good bye to Stephanie and Mom, then finally, as I walk up the ramp at the airport, to my dad, and I will be alone in the world and all of the chaos will end regardless of whether or not my lists are all checked off or if I remembered to pack dental floss or if I feel the least bit prepared.

Or maybe, then again, the chaos will be just beginning.

And so you have my last blog before I am gone. I promise, they'll get more interesting after I land in Dar Es Salaam late Tuesday, jet-lagged and hungry and wondering where I can get dental floss.

One love.

Oh yeah, the reading list:
-J.R.R. Tolkien - Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, The Return of the King (I have to read them someday might as well do it now)
-Flannery O'Connor - The Complete Stories
-Saul Bellow - Henderson the Rain King
-John Steinbeck - East of Eden (This one is really, really long.)
-Chuck Klosterman - Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs
-C.S. Lewis - Selected Works
-Various - Great American Short Stories
-Elie Wiesel - Night
-A Thesaurus
-Strunk and White - The Elements of Style


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